A year ago, my sister posted a video of my 3rd sister burping Jade on youtube.com.. It looked really scary.. and unknowingly, it has gotten really popular with some whacky comments..

Take a look!

Talent scouts prowling orchard..

Economy is growing and it seems like the number of "talent scouts" in Orchard area have increased. I am now getting stopped along Orchard almost 2 weeks 1x..

They must be blind not to notice my wrinkles and eyebags and sagging post pregnancy tummy under the make-up and clothes.

This round, it was for L'oreal & SKII, i explained to the young chap who must be >10 yrs younger then me that I am too old. The difference? He refused to give up and insisted on my number for followup with his supervisor.

What the heck.. it's X'mas and a new year is coming! Time for new challenges and experiences. It has been a while since I went under the camera again, so why not re-live the thrill again? i gave him a contact.

This got me thinking. Perhaps it is time to consider sending Jadelle's photos for agency screening. She can earn her own money for her education.And that exposure to cameras, I really would like her to experience what Daddy & Mummy tried before, after all, AK is a Manhunt winner in NUS!

Now, we just see if these "scouts" really do their jobs well.

my X'mas gift to myself.. and finally, i found my Jade necklace after 3 yrs!

My friend, Marene was raving about Brenda Cheah and how much she love her jewellery.. She splurged 500 sgd on 2 pairs of earrings!

Curious, and also, being end of the year (XMAS mood), PLUS, Takashimaya was having 10% off storewide.. i went to check it out!

Sigh, the pitfalls of working in Orchard! I ended up buying a pearl necklace with a jade pendant. I have been looking for it for 3 years! One versatile enough to change straps, classic enough to pass to my daughter without looking outdated, yet with a modern touch. I simply love my Chee-na stuff! Cost me 550sgd.. but I reckon it is worth it, after all, i don't spend often on jewellary, and if I do, i want it to be of good quality as I wear them sooo often! The string pearl straps can be removed and changed to other designs! Isn't this great for travelling & work and weekends and dinners?

Oh yes, I forgot to mention that the necklace was too long and the sales person will convert the excess to a complimentary pair of pearl earrings, which was another of my classic favorite, updated in style!

Really look forward to getting it on friday!

And what the heck, i walked into Gucci too.. decided to take the plunge and buy that waterproof canvas shoulder bag I have been eyeing for 5 months. It cost me 800 sgd, but for the price, it is 40% cheaper then other Gucci bags and being waterproof is a definite plus for me!

Ok, for once, CNY, will be Gucci for me!

AK, please dun faint tonight! *cross my fingers*

busy as a bee!!

Life speeds passed so fast! A quick post of happenings:

- jadelle went for JG holiday program

- we went bintan trip, AK, Jade & I

- jadelle starts to assert her own independence. self feed, self bathe, self EVERYTHING

- princess temper is pretty hot!

- started getting renovation quotes. settle with arts & thots. renovation starts 21st Dec and hope to complete Jan 15th

- started packing up blk 21

- goodbye to lots of precious memories.. renovation, getting married, ttc-ing, m/c, destressing by window city view, bringing jadelle back 1st time, confinement, staying home with jadelle 1st 3 months, weekends at home with AK & Jade, numerous mahjong games, parties and celebration gatherings..

- SAD, but must be done to achieve our goal. Need to harden my heart. I only hope Jadelle will remember her first home...

- Got a Flat panel TV for siblings n parents, but not appreciated by my mum.. karang guni nature.. haiz..

- starting new job 1st march 2008, life will be changed frrom that point onwards..

Jadelle is now 14 months in a blink..

Life has been breezing pass us with all that is ongoing in our lives! it suddenly occurred to me that my baby is no longer a baby, but a precocious little gal..

We celebrated her birthday at home. A home that gave us beautiful memories for the last 3 years... Will always remember it for all the joy and laughter and tears it provided us. It is also where alot of FIRSTS for us took place..

As a result of another FIRST, we will soon leave this place behind.. with lots of tears and brave smiles.. goodbye blk 21...

26th August.. Jadelle finally stood a few seconds without support!

I need to record this... before i forgotten it in the years ahead... She crawled so confidently and halted, looked at us, raised her butt into the air on firm legs (absence of jelly legs!) and push herself up to a standing position and started clapping in glee!

We were all so surprised, but clapped along too! Grandpa, Daddy, Auntie & Uncle & mummy all witnessed it! Too bad Grandma went into the room to change and missed it!!

More and more, i need to refer to her as my Toddler, not my Baby.. She has grown so much.. and so pretty now with big trusting eyes that sparkle mischieviously at times.

I love her laughter, her smiles, her hugs and her kisses! (She love to kiss me on the mouth!). Time is spinning forward already..

Is it time for another one? I am resisting it, yet, knowing that age is against me.. sigh..What if I get another girl? Will I love her less? Will people pressure me for a boy to "carry on the family name" and all those nonsense? I can't imagine 2 girls..but i also cannot stop wondering, if we have a boy, who will he look like? Jadelle looks so much like AK.. i struggle to find myself in her sometimes..

Sometimes, i feel that my daughter don't belong to me and is claimed by his family. Should we ever separate, will this happen and Jadelle don't get to stay with me? I still don't feel a part of them. Maybe this is the struggle of all married women?

When my mood is dark, I wonder: if anything ever happened to my other half, what I will do? What will his family do? Do i have to take on the responsibility of supporting his parents? That seems unfair to me? Strangely, as years passed, my heart hardens towards them.

He is not planning well for us. Myopic, is what i called it. I understand fully that any unforeseen circumstances on him will put Jadelle and me in difficulty. I am concerned.. If anything were to happen to me? What role does my own family play in the upbringing of Jadelle? Re-marriage? quite possible, knowing him...

Sometimes, i look back and wonder.. why all the sacrifices that i have made? Why must I be the one agonising over milk feeds and night feeds and go through labour and make sacrifices at work? I seemed to have taken a step down the ladder to allow others to step over me?

I fully understand the phrase now, that you cannot marry for love alone... Fate really plays with me..

Jadelle learning to self feed!

Jadelle is galloping ahead. I can see her soon in a while, to start bombarding me and AK with "why" why" why"...

She is one determined princess. Really wants her own way and gets angry with us when we take away her play items.

Now, she has started to self feed last weekend. I was only testing out, so i place newspapers all over the floor, put her in her high chair and place a spoon and fork and some cereals in front of her. Showed her how to scoop and she did it!!! Experimented with fork too and she also managed it!

Now, she can managed to finish 1 potato with cream sauce and jam all by herself (with mummy's help) but got herself really dirty in IKEA today!

We went IKEA tampines after her 1st Julia Gabriel class (Playnest). 12 babies! Quite full class!
But, i can see her interacting slowly with other babies. This week, she got flour paint all over her nice polo dress! hahahaha..

Looking forward to next lesson.. and her birthday bash!




Yesterday

Check out my Slide Show!

My pathetic attempts at creating a DSB..using powerpoint!

Video of the making of Jadelle's 1st photo shoot!

Photo taking with a baby is really tiring.. no.. a toddler!!

Here are some pictures of Jade latching on for my own memory.. She bit me so hard this weekend that tears rolled.. Maybe it is time to stop now..



I will miss her sleepy look..

and how she fell asleep while drinking milk and being cuddled..


ok, the photos look really relaxed rite? But, wow, at the end of the session.. i was like phew.. so tiring!! To make jadelle smile.. yikes!!! We feel like idiots manz!!



Surprise! She can actually sit still long enough on the chair for this shot!



I'll smiling for you, Auntie Wai Peng!



Hmm.. this horse harder then my own one.. can bite or not?








AK, LK, me were quite tired and hoarse and thirsty after the session! We took almost 300 shots! And WP still charged us the same amount! So paisay!





After that, we attended AK's colleague's bb 1st month.. she stay in a mansionette in Hougang.. quite big, would we choose such a location, i wonder?





Jadelle started to cough after that, i felt guilty.. was it due to the halterneck she wore for photoshoot? Or was it due to my cooking again? She really don't like my food.. feel like a failure..

Pondering over childcare issues @ Jadelle's 10th month

As Jade gets more mobile, life for us is again entering a new phase. Things she learnt recently:

1) learnt to yak on her mobile phone

2) put a comb through her hair

3) starting to recognise colours like red...

She is attempting to learn how to stand and walk, but you can see she is fearful of falling and hitting herself on the hard ground..

L gonna pop soon in September... Her tummy is extremely pointed and no way you can avoid the point that its a PRINCE!

Issues now that surface:

1) How come L no need to buy infant carrier/ stroller/cot/ sterilizer/ BB clothes/ wipes/ tummy wrap for bb??

Ans: Cos, her stupid SIL bought all the stuff ready at her place already, which is meant for MIL to use for Jade actually !!

2) L assumed that MIL will cook and look after her bb during confinement.. but what's going to happen to Jade who will be even more mobile then?

3) Will Jade feels neglected by the sudden shift of attention towards the new bb?

4) Maybe, as mum says, i should start to put Jade @ her place with Auntie Lily.. at least I have a piece of mind.. but, MIL will mind?

5) I don't want to hire a maid! How? Get lily to come over more often?

6) should i start on a playgroup for jade @ 18 months?

I am due for a trip to China in Early September.. Wanted AK to go with me for our anniversary... now with L going to pop soon.. MIL ask me to take leave when she POPS. How?

Maybe i bring baby with me.. think we can survive the plane ride there?? And AK can cope with bb alone when i am working?

Yesterday, AK tested market saying need more $$ to pass to lawyer to clear OL completely. L pretended she didn't hear it. when MIL ask her to temp. come up with a partial amount, she refuse... say, need $$ for bb to deliver then. But, she gonna work to get her profit manz.. think all burden shift to us?? This shows, never work with her for anything, she will take advantage!

i curse the day i know AK sometimes... when you marry, you marry the entire family! Take note!

New milestones, new thoughts, new toys!

Its been so hectic recently, that i almost forgot to update this blog!

Jadelle has been growing so rapidly, i fear that i forget all her achievements! Now, she can:

1) Wave goodbye & Say Hi!
2) kiss us on the cheeks
3) Dance to her favorite tunes (hokey pokey, itsy bitsy spider)
4) point to her head, ears, teeth, tongue, mouth and eyes when asked!
5) pat herself when we asked who is Jadelle
6) recognise ball, spider, milk bottle, dog, cat, pico (my dog!)
7) can asked us where? with her hands!
8) Blow us flying kisses!
9) play hide & seek with me
10) learn to run away when i try to "catch" her.. playing catching!
11) learnt to stand up with support, though still no independent standing! and Still rapidly crawling around!
12) She added new sounds to her baby language.. mamama, dada,arrgghh, bababa, yeeeeeeee, papapapa, etc.. :)
13) And she knows who is mummy, daddy, grandpa, grandma, auntie, uncle!

Workwise, it is tough with the recent travelling. I was away for 1 week and i miss AK & Jadelle so bad, i caught 2 earlier flights home and cut short my shopping time!! Milk supply also dipped a little..Workload is still piling up, but with the last headhunting session, it had made me wonder if it was all worth it?? I will speak with management today and see how it goes...

I was glad that Jade still want to latch when i return home, contrary to my fears that she will reject latching on after 1 week of bottle feeding x 24 hrs x 7 days.

AK is so busy with work, that he is neglecting his new toy.. hmm.. better polish and protect your car, boy! I am still so fascinated with that car.. what a difference!

OL has been sold.. we are glad at the positive returns but with a tinge of regret... if only other parties are not involved... what a difference it would have made..

Now, i will focus on other alternatives... Once Aug/ Sept is reach, AK & i will review again. What's next? so exciting..

Jadelle hit 9 months Plus! and Won Healthy Baby 2007 contest.

Life has been hectic these few weeks.. still enjoying the weekends with jadelle. She has been extremely proficient in crawling and is now enjoying standing up, though still with support!

Brought her to participate in the jalan besar grc 2007 baby contest! Thought that since she did not crawl fast enough, can balek kampong already, but, surprise! she won it! and got a BIg trophy for it! Assessment for this contest was done by doctor and a nurse.. based on motor skills, alertness of the baby, weight and height of the baby and food intake of baby!

Oh, another update? Daddy decide to get a new toy for his birthday!!

May Day long weekend!

@ JAdelle's great grandma's 72nd birthday bash!
Decorating up Jadelle's room! Itsy Bitsy Spider...
climbing down the.... AIRCON???
"JAdelle.. Where is the spider??? THERE!!"
AK's new artwork in our living room!

Jadelle @ my mum's place, growing a yogurt moustache!
swimming on Sat. morning with her new dolphin float.. she DO NOT LIKE IT!! ARRGGHH!!! waste my $$$$$..
But, the little lady love to pose for the camera, even in unfamliar grounds like COOL CHLORINATED WATER!
Acting surprised! I should think about sending her for theatre classes for kids next time?
Clapping her hands, something she mastered about 2 weeks ago! She really love to do this after pushing herself to sitting up position!


Wow, time flies when you are having fun! We started our long weekend with a nice dinner on Friday with AK's family...


SATURDAY:

We started off early @ 8am with Jadelle deciding to wake us up by crawling over us and babbling in her baby language (yes, we are still practicing partial co-sleeping... meaning from 3am onwards, as i am too tired to put her back to bed after latching her on!). We couldn't NOT wake up as she was threatening to explore "danger" zones like the items on our bedside table! AK & I missed her so much and we definitely enjoyed our morning in bed with her, as she is soooo cheeky!

Fed her her oatmeal cereal with EBM @ home before leaving the house, and AK bathe her (poor dear, she banged her head on the tub while trying to resist washing her hair!) and she played awhile on her playmat.

When she got sick of it, she decide that it is time to explore the sofa and the TV sideboard! Jadelle is getting really experienced in getting herself on her feet! This little lady is in a hurry! it is so difficult to change her diaper nowadays, plus, she move really fast! It is really time to childproof the sharp corners, for, i see increasingly more items of potential danger in our home that will really hurt her.. like the electrical cables @ the TV side board, the electrical plugs, the Zen coffee table, the TV side board..

Suddenly, the sideboard that appealed to us when we bought it doesn't appear so appealing now!
SUNDAY:
We went swimming on @ my uncle's condo.. she do not like the water now.. clingy baby!! "POST-IT PAD BABY?!!"

But, the pictures are lovely aren't they?

This was followed by us watching a movie with Lilian & Heng while JAdelle is taking her morning nap! When she woke up, Jadelle followed us to AK's parents place and we "deposit" her there until Dinner time, to work on decorating her room!

Dinner was a feast, as it was AK's maternal grandma's birthday bash! YuM! But Jadelle was cranky at the loud racket created by her uncles and grand uncles' Karaoke Singing..

We finished up Jadelle's room!!

MONDAY:

Spend the morning @ home as usual, and met AK's family for dim sum @ Ah Yat abalone @ Turf City, ppsssstttt: 50% off rates for Dim sum!! After this, we let JAdelle followed them, while we continued our "project", this time in the living room! hmmmm.... any comments??

I have a dream of jadelle's dream bedroom...

We went out on one of the weekends to a birthday party of kellybun's boy.. and we dress the daughter in matching colour to the daddy.. check it out below!
Here is jadelle wondering what mummy is doing!
She decided that she want that device now!!!
Pulling herself up to stand..

here is a picture of it!! Gosh.. so sweet eh!

we are going to the zoo zoo zoo...

Day trip to the Zoo was fun! With Dor, Lyn & hubbies & babies! Jade fell asleep shortly after taking these shots.. but she woke up later! We showed her the polar bears, zebras, giraffes and hippos.. hmm.. gotta pay another visit! Haven't walk finish!!