It has been such a long time since i entered this blog.. and it is because it would have caused me alot of pain.....
I had lost the last baby... and those drops of blood.. were starting signs of miscarriage..
the baby stopped growing and my body started to reject it..
I will never forget that day.. I called AK after the gynae told me the harsh facts.. i was screaming in my mind silently.. NONONONO.... praying desperately that he is not telling me the bad news...
The next day, we went for 2nd opinion, only to have the facts harshly drummed in again, though more gently...
Today, if i am still pregnant, i would have been in my 5th month..I tell myself that I had asked for a healthy baby.. and the last one was not meant to be with us.. bye my baby... i love you...
As it is, i have to restart my life again.. and only to realise that life goes on , work goes on, regardless of what you had gone through..
AK & I are not giving up and we have started trying again since 3 months ago... The last gynae has assured us that we should try again and we didn' have any problems. The last miscarriage was a random case..
Easier said then done... but i don't want to think about it.. another gal fren, who miscarried same time as me, is now 3 months pregnant again.. I have hope..
Today is CD 23... having sore boobies.. really sore.. but otherwise, no other symptoms..
crossing fingers and praying to the Gods that we can have a healthy baby soon...
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