End of maternity leave

Life is full of choices and right now, i wish i can choose not to return to work.. At the beginning, i did think that i would relish returning to work, after staying at home for 3 months looking after baby..Yet, i survived and to my surprise, discover that I enjoy my time with my girl, and i did not flare up as often as i thought i would, given my past experience with my siblings and my character (same as my dear mummy!)

Yet, now, with the looming prospect of returning to the working ranks, and depositing my girl @ my MIL's place.. hmm.. many thoughts are flowing through my brain.

I worry, for instance that my MIL's insistence on sarong cradle will result in my girl craving to be rocked every second (even at night, with my hand permanently stuck onto the sarong cradle and rocking it!), the pacifier, depositing Jadelle in front of the TV acting as a temporary nanny.. and in the process, hampers her attention development and eye sight!

I wonder too, if my PIL's poor command of language will affect her development? What about interaction with other kids?

And will she come to resent me as i resent my mum working when i was younger? Life sucks in that, i have limited control in that aspect over my own child.. The best situation is to look after her myself with a maid helping me out! But, that option, is impossible right now.. too much to give up..

Most of all, will she prefer other caregivers instead of us, the parents?

Jadelle knows how to lift up her head & hold her toys!

oh manz.. i muz record this before i forget! Jadelle know how to hold her toy today! and can lift up her head while on her tummy!

more pictures!

Been to bangkok and back with Jadelle & Family!

Wah sey, not easy travelling with baby.. can't shop as much as i like and have to adjust to her sleeping and nap times, and also accomodate her feeding too!

Not many nursing rooms in Bangkok, so, it is hard to latch her on directly, plus, she struggles @ the breast when milk flow is slow.. so... sigh..think my milk flow drop during this trip, though i try to pump at least 1x a day.. but cos of time constraint..aiyah.. gotta re-establish again..

But the main aim is achieved: to pray to the 4 face buddha! plus, managed to buy some carters rompers, some clothing for myself @ pratunum, bought pigeon stuff @ departmental store and cheaper medication too..


by the way, the plane ride there was smooth with baby.. latched her on on take off, but coming back, she was cranky as she wanted to be rocked to sleep! keke..

9 weeks and i finally did it...

Tomorrow, Jadelle will be 10 weeks old and in honour of that, we shave her head. so sad to see her beautiful hair all gone and they were streaked ith brown highlights too..but we decided to do that as her hair at the back was dropping out. And thank god we did it, otherwise, i wouldn't know how bad her cradle cap was... though i have been washing her hair with cradle cap shampoo.

more Jadelle's photos!!

time flies.. jadelle is going to be 9 weeks!

the photo was taken on my birthday.. cute hor?

Hm, no time to log in, no time to update. Spend most of my waking hours with my girl. Have to remember to treasure all the moments before i go back to work.. so sianz. especially when she is so much more responsive now.

She is more fun to be with now and will coo and gaga and smile when i talk to her.. but she is also more fussy in the evenings. 7-8pm, only want me to carry.. 8-10pm wants hubby to carry her and jog around the house for 5 min. to put her to sleep..I think it must be due to the bottle feeding and wind in her tummy..well, still can tahan.. haven't really lost my temper yet..

Been out with her a few times.. alone even.. i carry her in a sling and feed her before going out and along with my diaper bag, out we go! So far, been to plaza singapura and viviocity alone with her.. but can't buy clothes leh.. cos gotta carry her..I need some time alone with her.. jalan jalan.. so, i politely decline to deposit her at my MIL place.

Jadelle is also consuming more milk. I can't keep up with her demands and can't fully empty my breast with a pump.. sigh.. so she is now on partial breastfeeding and supplementing with FM.

Now, i have to start planning for the BKK trip with Jadelle and AK. Crossing my fingers she will be a good girl...

all the mummies and babies!

chio boh?