The Flipping babe @ 7 months

Jadelle marked her 7th month with a FLIP..over her playpen's rail, onto my bed. All i did was to put her into the playpen (which hasn't been lowered yet!) and went to wash my hands.. she decided to take matters into her own hands and probably pulled herself up the rail too fast and flip over the edge!

I heard her screaming her lungs out and came dashing.. and there she was, legs in the air kicking frantically and head onto my bed's mattress!

And Daddy was all the time. concussed on the bed! HMMMM.... careless mummy!

Everyone says she looks like the DAd, so here are some photos to compare!

Brought her to BB & cream positive babies class.. i like it leh.. she seems to like the teacher! Hm, will go for more trial classes and see how things go!

My thoughts @ Jadelle's 7 months?

- i cannot bear to stop latching her on,

- but i want my freedom and my beauty sleep!

- she is growing so fast that I can't catch up.. where is my baby girl?

- soon, she will learn to talk. Already, she is babbling her lungs out to me in her baby talk.. I have to be more careful about what we speak in front of her

- separation anxiety. I hate for her to be apart from me and she started to recognise people..

- i want to change my JOB!

Jadelle can crawl!!! @ 6 months, 3 weeks!

Wow, my baby sure is impatient to MOVE! She just learnt to push herself upright on her arms? and in less then a week, she mastered the moving forward technique, instead of turning in circles! And i haven't uploaded the pictures yet!!

Trying to slow down BF, but this is really tough.......... i hate that engorged sensation..

Interview coming up this week! ooh... i am nervous, more then i have ever been in a long time..

more pictures of jadelle sitting!

Time seems to zoom by! And my princess is trying her darnest to zoom zoom too! I mean, she juz only recently learnt how to sit, right? Now, she is working very very hard and almost succeeded in pulling herself to stand. And, she has learnt to raise her body up on her arms, and is now trying to move forward too on her tummy..

I must think about child proofing seriously.. will go shop for safety stuff this weekend and stay @ home to child proof!

I chop off my hair.. sigh.. it has been dropping really bad and Jadelle keep on pulling on it... After Jo's housewarming, i went to chop it off.. @ QB house no less! 10 bucks!

I receive compliments from my colleagues though.. hahaha.. now @ 42kg.. my weight when i got married.. hmm... wonder if my wedding cheongsam, i can wear again??

Went Shopping again recently @ TAKA baby fair! My hauls:

1. pigeon bottle detergent x 2 @ 16.90sgd
2. stacking cup toys for Jadelle @ 9.90sgd
3. softsounds cloth book @ 19.90sgd
4. 2 carters rompers @ 7.90sgd each
5. pigeon bb biscuits @ 3.80sgd
6. iplay swimwear diaper x 1 @ 5.90sgd
7. iplay sunhat x 2 @ 5.90sgd each

Still to grab:

1. ball @ 1.90sgd
2. swim float @ 6.90sgd
3. pigeon peristaltic bottle 300ml @ 7.20sgd less 50% if exchange old milk bottle
4. inflatable tub @ 5.90sgd
5. inflatable gym @ 19.90sgd
6. more toys!
7. cotton wool
8. more bottle detergent & laundry detergent..

And there is Isetan Private Sale coming up!

ooh.. AK gonna peng sanz!

Lots of milestones hit this CNY!

Jadelle's 1st CNY was so eventful! I took leave and was a SAHM for 2 weeks.. and i tried to put her onto a routine.. it worked! At the end of the 2 weeks:
1) Jadelle was taking her naps without me rocking her and napping for min. 45 minutes!
2) she woke up twice at night and i managed to get her back to sleep without comfort nursing!
3) Brought her swimming!
4) She learnt to sit up!
5) Feed her green bean puree, apple puree, rice cereal, brown rice cereal.
6) She collected lots of ang pows (with lots of relatives claiming she look like a BOY!:()
7) She fell off the bed, bBut landed on daddy! Nevertheless, she got frightened and cried.

CNY was so fun!

Sigh, but once her grandparents (AK's parents) return from their china trip, it wasn't so fun for me..

1) Jadelle developed cough, phlegm, running nose and it was the first time she fell ill.. It was heartbreaking to see her feeling so bad.. She didn't know what is happening to her and needed my comfort more (= comfort nursing and carrying & sayang!)
2) After i go back to work, she refused to be patted back to sleep and want us to carry her again! There goes my efforts in the last 2 weeks. I wasn't sure if it is due to her being sick, or my MIL must have reverted to rocking her..
3) She wake up often in the night crying for us to carry her..

I feel so tired...so much to do, and never having anytime to do it.. my to-do list still outstanding:

- repack my clothes! My MIL dunno where to put my clothes! So sickening! especially after i arranged it and she just pile on top! I wish she can leave the clothes to the maid. She made me feel so inadequate.
- get a full night's sleep finally!
- how to get rid of my backache from the night nursing.
- how to get jadelle to sleep through the night.
- start flashing GD cards @ Jadelle again.. this time, including the english & chinese program which i must prepare..
- pack my table and get rid of stuff i don't need
- find a solution to store my bags nicely
- do up jadelle's bedroom properly, with storage, bed etc..
- i want a good shelf for my books!! I HATE THAT IKEA SHELF!
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Jadelle's first swim in the pool!

We had another August mummies gathering and this time, we decide to have a swim fest instead. So, i brought Jadelle along with swimming barang barang!

And it was a success! Perhaps it was the jumperoo thingy in the wading pool of Leia's condo.. but Jadelle liked it very much and don't seem to mind the cold water.. After getting used to it, i decide to let her float on the water, with my hands supporting her head above the water. She got used to it after a while and start kicking breaststroke kicks to push herself forward.. i was really surprised, but then, she was always trying to push herself forward on her tummy this way.. keke.. I then put her on her back.. and supported her back.. but she kept straining her neck and try to push herself up! Sigh, this girl don't like to sit down..

SOB, AK did not go with us, so, no one took pictures of us! No pictures for Jadelle's 1st swim in the pool! but, the memories will be there..:) Next time, Daddy will go along..

It was pretty tough to travel with her alone, and after swimming, i had to change her out quickly of her wet clothes and clean her up. I went with her to the changing room and change myself out of my swim wear first..I placed her down on the bench in the changing room with me sitting next to her, but i was so scared she will flip over.. *heart beating fast!* I then proceed to change her out and try to wipe her down with the mustela no rinse solution..but, ewww, the chlorine smell is still there! i didn't bathe, but i wipe my breasts clean first with the mustela.. so i can feed Jadelle later on..

I am seriously thinking to go bintan or a local resort with AK & Jadelle after CNY, just us.. it would be really fun by then.. perhaps in May or June??

Sept mummies gathering!

it was fun fun fun!! But, sigh.. hubby ain't happy about these gatherings.. :( Maybe I am overdoing it.. there is a swim fest next week though.. and I signed us up for it.. uh oh!! *pull my ears*

Jadelle has turned 5 months!

Wow, this weekend has been one full of thoughts, new introduction of stuff to jadelle, lots of gatherings and my usual mahjong game.. hmm.. what a busy weekend it has been! No wonder Jadelle is tired out!

I noticed to my dismay that Jadelle's weight dropped 1/2 kg in the last week back to 6.5kg from 7kg!. Made me wonder if my milk is really enough at this growing stage of hers..

I visited the breast specialist on Thursday to investigate my "lump" further. It turned out to be a cyst.. but.. a MILK CYST! It was drawn out immediately to avoid it being curdled up inside and causing mastitis and infection and forming a permanent lump.. cost me almost 400sgd! Sigh, but it was a relief. Found out from Dr. Wee (The breast specialist) that some women do have a slower milk flow rate and quantity/ letdown is variable and is very very sensitive to the signals to the brain from stimuli.. Today's working women do not produce as much milk as our ancestors, simply because of the stress levels of our work. He also advised me to start to introduce solids to Jadelle, as milk will no longer have enough iron & calcium for her growth, whether breastmilk or formula milk. One of the factors to point to moving in this direction is whether Jadelle is gaining weight.

Well, since she lost weight instead, I decide not to wait until Chinese New Year anymore.. but will start slowly..

We began yesterday on her 5th month! and it was a success!

What else we did this weekend??

Here goes:
1) opened up the HUGE bumper playmat pooh wonderland limited edition (dual side with pooh 1 side & ABC's the other side) and got Jadelle on it!
2) went for Sept mummies gathering! ooh.. so many babies!!
3) played mahjong 2x!
4) went shopping for more Jadelle's clothes! (relax lah.. only 10sgd for 2 pcs!)
5) Went Ikea to eat lunch and had fun browsing!
6) went to Zouk flea market, spent 7sgd for a ring & a book!
7) played and played with Jadelle! She is sooo fun to play with now.. i missed her so much during the week.. sigh..

Milestones @ 20 weeks..

My MIL told me that Jadelle has been chuckling when her grandfather played with her earlier on, and i was so disappointed that i missed her "1st chuckle".. that same night when she was 19.5 weeks, she chuckled when i playfully pulled away the handle on the camera that she was trying to grab.. and it moved me almost to tears.. at least it was my first time hearing her laugh.. the headaches and heartaches of being a FTWM..

sshhh.. i am going for a meeting on wednesday.. what news might that bring?? Stay tuned!

AK is stressed up.. and i feel so stressed too by the stuff he is troubled over..This on top of the daily grind, almost made me sleepless over the weekend too. Thank God for a happy and smiling Jadelle over the weekend! Though the naughty girl still kick off all her blankets and wake up @ 2-3 hrs interval to latch on, she really made our weekends more enjoyable. i really hate Mondays now, when i have to hand her over to my MIL...

What we did this weekend? Hmm, on Satureday,we went for a ttc mummies gathering from SMH forum.. total of 4 mummies, with babies ranging from 3.5months to 7months.. wanted to bring jadelle for a swim in the pool, but.. the weather was bad.. so, it was called off..

On sunday, we went for a Gymboree trial class that last 45 mins and each minute cost me 1sgd! ouch! The class taught and gave parents ideas on what to do with infants at each age that is appropriate for them.. we had some fun with torchlights.. but Jadelle seems unmoved by all the action going on around her! Most of the stuff, i do try to do with her on weekends, though different songs and actions.. The program change every 2 weeks though.. nevertheless, i did sign up for the annual membership, as it probably will be more useful (especially their playgym @ 8sgd) in 2 months time onwards when she becomes more mobile and will try to climb all over the place..

Thinking if i should really send her for classes leh. Shichida? arrghhhhhhhhh..... $$$$$!!!!

Thoughts on expressing @ work..

Having returned to work for a month, I have started to get used to the routine of pumping at work. However, having a slow milk flow rate definitely has it disadvantage.

For one, i need a longer time to express a quantity that is definitely not enough for Jadelle. For another, it interferes with my working time and the company is definitely not happy about this. Imagine me spending 45 minutes in the toilet each round x 4 times a day to get 8-11 oz?

I realise that my company, even though it is an MNC, is severely lacking in facilities to help their staff who wishes to continue to breastfeed their babies. Yet, bringing it up to the management brought up questions of: " if another colleague can do it in the toilet, why can't you? And in a shorter time too!"

Imagine that i owned a dual electric pump and i can't utilise it, as there is no power socket in the handicap toilet!

And, this recent clash of opinion made me realise too, that it is time i change my job. I am getting too complacent already and have started to be "bo chap" about my quality of work.. That can't go on. I MUST change this year!

Dear God, please bless me with a better job in terms of benefits, understanding bosses, great career prospects and show me the money please! *kneeling down in prayer*

19 weeks old and she is 7kg!

someone in the family has a bun in the oven now! I am going to be auntie again.. :)





Jadelle is going to be a big sister to lots of babies next year! keke..





I look at my girl nowadays and i wonder how on earth did she come from my tummy?





She has been changing so fast. It is so difficult to change her diapers now as she keeps flipping over and babbling to me about all she has done and what she thinks of me changing her diapers! And it is definitely a no-no to put any objects near her with her grabbing it and with equally fast lightning speed, she put it straight into her mouth.





It is still a joy to latch her on.. she will try to touch my face, my cheek and even put her fingers into my mouth and use her fingers to cover her face (this allows me some decency too!! keke!). I will miss that when i wean her off the breast.. until then, enjoy!





She gives me a headache now in the car.. don't sit long in the car seat and keep trying to climb out!



I have been reading up on weaning.. and it seems that it will be a messy affair full of frustration and tears on both sides! So, until then, i am gonna enjoy the lighter load when travelling with Jadelle now and a mess free home! Wonder how i will struggle with my PIL on what foods are considered ok to feed my girl... sigh.. another headache there..

Time flies! Jadelle has spent her 1st X'mas and New Year

Happy 2007!

wow, time flies, i have been stuck in the same job for almost 6 years already! And Jadelle, my little princess, oh my goodness, she is trying her best to grow as fast as possible and that is scary to me.. she is now 18 weeks old..my baby is trying to be as adult as possible, as fast as possible!!

Now, she can:

1) flip over and look up and around at her toys

2) Bat at toys and grab anything within reach HARD..(OUCH! my Hair!).. and it goes straight into her mouth..

3) Get frustrated when she can't sit up by herself and will scream for help.

4) know how to get the old folks running to her by crying for attention..

She start to make noises and attempt to talk with us in her baby language.. i am crossing my fingers and hoping that i ain't missing much of her milestones.. so far, she reserves it for weekends to demonstrate new abilities to mummy and daddy..

My flipping baby..@ 14 weeks!

My girl marks her 14th week yesterday by demonstrating to her Daddy that she can flip if she wants to from her back to her front..

Daddy didn't know that it was her first flip without assistance and acted nonchalantly, and even told me that she already had done her tummy time all by herself... i was puzzled when he told me this.. but was sooo excited..

All we did was to show Jadelle where to place her legs and arms and she picked it up fast in 2 days! At the last August mummies gathering, she was still struggling to hold up her head! (See video clip on previous post)

Now, i am worried that she soon will be turning and flipping out of my queen sized bed! Oh dear, my girl's trying to learn as fast as she could and growing up faster then i expected. Soon, i will have to put protective corners around the house and plug up all the electrical points.

I am glad that we were able to witness her first flip.. and cross my fingers that i will not miss anymore of her firsts....

I will be making my first working trip to KL tomorrow and this pose a headache for me..how to pump and store the milk? Looks like i have to bring my fridge to go and require assistance from colleagues in the M'sia office for fridge storage.. as well as during trips. I am crossing my fingers that i won't need to pump so long.. :( sigh..

Breastfeeding in this sense is really a pain.. and i ache to se my girl waking up every 2 hours to suckle for milk, cos i keep thinking that my milk ain't enough and that is why she still wakes up so often at night for milk.. yet, to see her latched on so comfortably, especially when initially she don't know how to latch... my heart melts.. latching her on is the most efficient way for me to bond with her now, giving my lack of time with her, as a Full Time Working Mother (FTWM). I am now wondering if i should attempt to feed her via bottle at her last feed so that she is full enough to sleep longer and perhaps last through the night..

I will have to latch Jadelle on until 3am and pray for the best.. can Andy handle his princess alone????

Will update on THAT when i return!

Aug 2006 mummies gathering!!

Back to work 1 week and jadelle is 13 weeks old!

Ok, i survived 1 week of work! And, it was tough. Expressing at work is stressful, disruptive and super inconvenient at my workplace! i try to express min. 3 times a day, and aim to express 4 times.. am expressing 180-220ml per day only. which is enough for 2 feeds only? This means that Jadelle on some days might have to drink some formula milk to tide over until i am back home..

I miss her so much at work this week, and am still adjusting to life in the office after baby.. My bosses are loading me back with my projects.. with the expressing that i need to do in the office, and me trying to return home ASAP to latch Jadelle back on.. it is extremely hard to concentrate 100% on my work.

I have to express in the handicap toilet, but as i am not used to a pump, it is hard for me to have a letdown! As such, my pumping time is 1 hr, even with a dual electric pump (by the way, i actually have to pull extension cord into the toilet! How bad and embarrassing can that get?)

I am actually expressing now, hoping to stimulate my breasts to produce more milk and get used to the pump so that letdown iz easier. This is easier said then done!

Just back from a gathering with the August mummies from the internet forum. So fun to see and compare the babies! Never been to one! And today's gathering actually was filmed down by a TV crew for their new programme to be broadcast in December! Can't wait to see Jadelle on camera..


Hm, a new year is approaching! My wishlist?? LOTS! Here goes:

1) I can express enough milk to feed Jadelle
2) More $$
3) A breastfeeding friendly workplace!
4) Get a new job that i really like with new challenges but yet, don't need me to sacrifice time with Jadelle & AK..
5) That Jadelle don't get addicted to TV from the long hours her grandma put her in front of it.
6) Jadelle DO NOT PICK UP broken languages from her grandparents that is totally incorrect.
7) Jadelle can finally sleep through the night and in her own bed!
8) AK and i have more "us" time together..
9) more LV and coach bags!
10) To start my own niche online business that will earn $$ by itself!
11) Get back my flat tummy!
12) Stretchmarks begone!
13) That everyone i love be healthy and fine..:)

Will be bring Jadelle for her 5 in 1 jab @ polyclinic tomorrow.. hope all goes well!

End of maternity leave

Life is full of choices and right now, i wish i can choose not to return to work.. At the beginning, i did think that i would relish returning to work, after staying at home for 3 months looking after baby..Yet, i survived and to my surprise, discover that I enjoy my time with my girl, and i did not flare up as often as i thought i would, given my past experience with my siblings and my character (same as my dear mummy!)

Yet, now, with the looming prospect of returning to the working ranks, and depositing my girl @ my MIL's place.. hmm.. many thoughts are flowing through my brain.

I worry, for instance that my MIL's insistence on sarong cradle will result in my girl craving to be rocked every second (even at night, with my hand permanently stuck onto the sarong cradle and rocking it!), the pacifier, depositing Jadelle in front of the TV acting as a temporary nanny.. and in the process, hampers her attention development and eye sight!

I wonder too, if my PIL's poor command of language will affect her development? What about interaction with other kids?

And will she come to resent me as i resent my mum working when i was younger? Life sucks in that, i have limited control in that aspect over my own child.. The best situation is to look after her myself with a maid helping me out! But, that option, is impossible right now.. too much to give up..

Most of all, will she prefer other caregivers instead of us, the parents?

Jadelle knows how to lift up her head & hold her toys!

oh manz.. i muz record this before i forget! Jadelle know how to hold her toy today! and can lift up her head while on her tummy!

more pictures!

Been to bangkok and back with Jadelle & Family!

Wah sey, not easy travelling with baby.. can't shop as much as i like and have to adjust to her sleeping and nap times, and also accomodate her feeding too!

Not many nursing rooms in Bangkok, so, it is hard to latch her on directly, plus, she struggles @ the breast when milk flow is slow.. so... sigh..think my milk flow drop during this trip, though i try to pump at least 1x a day.. but cos of time constraint..aiyah.. gotta re-establish again..

But the main aim is achieved: to pray to the 4 face buddha! plus, managed to buy some carters rompers, some clothing for myself @ pratunum, bought pigeon stuff @ departmental store and cheaper medication too..


by the way, the plane ride there was smooth with baby.. latched her on on take off, but coming back, she was cranky as she wanted to be rocked to sleep! keke..

9 weeks and i finally did it...

Tomorrow, Jadelle will be 10 weeks old and in honour of that, we shave her head. so sad to see her beautiful hair all gone and they were streaked ith brown highlights too..but we decided to do that as her hair at the back was dropping out. And thank god we did it, otherwise, i wouldn't know how bad her cradle cap was... though i have been washing her hair with cradle cap shampoo.

more Jadelle's photos!!

time flies.. jadelle is going to be 9 weeks!

the photo was taken on my birthday.. cute hor?

Hm, no time to log in, no time to update. Spend most of my waking hours with my girl. Have to remember to treasure all the moments before i go back to work.. so sianz. especially when she is so much more responsive now.

She is more fun to be with now and will coo and gaga and smile when i talk to her.. but she is also more fussy in the evenings. 7-8pm, only want me to carry.. 8-10pm wants hubby to carry her and jog around the house for 5 min. to put her to sleep..I think it must be due to the bottle feeding and wind in her tummy..well, still can tahan.. haven't really lost my temper yet..

Been out with her a few times.. alone even.. i carry her in a sling and feed her before going out and along with my diaper bag, out we go! So far, been to plaza singapura and viviocity alone with her.. but can't buy clothes leh.. cos gotta carry her..I need some time alone with her.. jalan jalan.. so, i politely decline to deposit her at my MIL place.

Jadelle is also consuming more milk. I can't keep up with her demands and can't fully empty my breast with a pump.. sigh.. so she is now on partial breastfeeding and supplementing with FM.

Now, i have to start planning for the BKK trip with Jadelle and AK. Crossing my fingers she will be a good girl...

all the mummies and babies!

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My thoughts @ Jadelle's 5th week plus..

Jadelle is slowly establishing her own pattern n timing for feeding.. 12mn, 4am, 6am, 8am, 10am, 12 noon, 3pm, 6pm, 9pm.. and during the day, she can nap ~ 3-4 hrs in total..

i have been showing her black, white and red flash cards since 2 weeks onwards and she can really focus on things liaoz, so i start her on GD red dots program yesterday, since she starts to stay awake more in afternoons. she does enjoy it! so happy to see her interested expression and her strong focus on the cards.

Expressing breast milk: hmm.. that is a tough one lah.. i can't seem to fit in a regular expressing timing, since i prefer to latch her on.. and the IQ Uno electric pump don't work so well on me leh.. now, i own an iq uno and an iq duo and it both comes with manual pump function too. am getting ~60ml if my breasts are full like every 2-3 hrs.. if i feed her FM, she takes between 60ml - 90ml now.. so, i hope i can soon express enough to match her demand.

Have introduced the bottle to her, both Avent and Pigeon bottle teats.. NUK.. sigh.. forget it lah.. she gets nipple confusion from it. Now, slowly replacing her day feeds with bottle, while i still latch her on in the night until 8am and relatch her back on from 7pm onwards..

Taking things easy seems to work.. i no longer am concerned about how much i express if i get 20ml per session, so be it... supplement with FM at most.

I am also learning to put her down when she is awake and let her play by herself until she calls for me..instead of carrying her all the time.. no joke, when she is now 4.5kg and approaching the weight of a bag of rice!

I have been out a couple of times with her.. to vivio city, to city link/ raffles city/ orchard road/ polyclinic.. and only 1 time, have i been able to go out with her alone. NOT EASY! lots of stuff to carry, plus a wriggly baby who may cry! i can't bring out the stroller with her in it cos i scared she cries and asked to be carried and how to cope with the stroller?? keke..

7 weeks more to go back to work.. i must plan fast now..my career..

time is moving forward fast..

Wow, been a while since i last posted.. Jadelle's first month came and went with great success.. been a while since i met so many friends.. especially after being cooped up in the house with the baby..

So happy to finally dress up a little and stop feeling so "auntie".. My confinement lady finally left on monday.. and wow.. really missed her.. she also cried when going back home.. my tears can't help dropping lor..

Its been a week, me and baby @ home.. and its been a great bonding session.. yes, sometimes, feel so tired.. especially in the evenings when she fusses and cries non-stop. Still, i think i take her crying more then my PIL, my hubby.. haha..

Am so glad that i have help and company in morning from my mum's maid. Otherwise, i dunno how to go toilet etc when bb is awake! And thanks to my PIL also for coming over to help with baby when i need an extra pair of hands.. and thanks also to my dear lao gong.. who, though super tired from work, still will jump out of bed to help me with baby..

My birthday ah.. finally turned 28.. haha.. AK and I deposit baby with my PIL and went ot eat sakae sushi.. wow.. really miss the sashimi.. but, my appetite like dropped leh.. since the confinement..

Regarding breastfeeding and bottle feeding and formula feeding.. my milk isn't that fantastic.between 50-70ml now expressed out? I tried the avent isis, avent uno, and now the avent duo.. but quantity stays the same, though the time taken to pump is so much shorter for the dual pump. I really dunno how to input pumping sessions into my latching on.. plus, my girl is so fussy at the bottle, she insists on being latch on after a bottle feed, especially in the evening!

I do give my girl FM, but she never take more then 90ml at one time? and sometimes, only 60ml! but of cos, most of the time, i do latch her on for a while before i give her FM, cos i can feel that my breast isn't very soft and she cries after a while of being latched on, especially in evenings. I count myself lucky that though i bottle feed her, she still latches on well on my breast. now, i only hope i can increase my milk supply even more. Thinking of buying a avent duo and hope it will help me to stimulate my breasts to increase milk production..

Went out a couple of times with baby, in a sling, stroller and nursed her in public everytime, cos she fusses and insists on the breast especially in evening.. so far, ok lah. i dun care what others think leh.. since, my priority is to feed my girl! but i do have nursing tops lah.

I brought Jadelle for her hep. B jab myself and phew.. it is tough going out with her alone manz! I do wish i have enough milk to feed her outside without bottle feeding, cos, going out shopping will be much less barang barang.. btw, she weighs 4.17kg at the weigh in.. gained 1kg from her birth weight and more then 1 kg from her discharged weight.. am so glad.. even if my milk flow dropped later on, at least i BF her for 1 month..

realised that i am back to work next month end! ouch! hope i can get another job ASAP!

My weight? hm, still got to lose 2kg more.. can wear all my tops, but my bottoms.. sigh.. and my tummy.. SIGH...... my brand new bikini.. sob sob.. think i can't wear it for a while liaoz..